First of all sorry if this is in the wrong thread but I wasn't 100% sure where to put this and thanks in advance for any advice people can give.
I'm really confused and sad at the moment. As some of you may or may not know my long term boyfriend broke up with me in the summer. I really thought (and part of me still does) that we would marry one day. He broke up with me due to not feeling the same anymore but we were going through the stress of long distance and he was really depressed at the time so I believe his feelings could change back or new feelings for me could develop in the future when/if he recovers. At least I hope so.
I am sick of getting my hopes up every time I see him but I know I will until I either stop loving him (which I don't believe will happen) or we get back together.
As a way of trying to avoid any extra hurt and trying to make sense of the situation I have been praying hard every single day since the split and I asked the Lord for guidence.
I don't have much time at the mo so can't go into too much detail but I really asked for signs and two seperate old friends who I hadn't spoke to for at least 1-2 years told me on seperate occasions that they went through something similar with their partners and both are now engaged. One friend had her boyfriend (now fiancee) break up with her when he was depressed and told her he didnt love her anymore and wont change his mind....theyre now engaged. The other friend told me how she was the depressed/stressed one and ended things with her partner saying she wasn't in love anymore and would never get the feelings back.....5 months later they got back together.....now they are engaged.
Also whenever I'm really down I keep seeing banana skins on the path. I know that sounds weird but it holds a significance to me and my ex when we were dating (long story) and whenver I see one I feel comforted like God is trying to tell me something.
However I do have doubts because I don't want to keep setting myself for a fall. I'm trying my best to be strong and have faith that I need to be paitent for things to work out etc but obviously these "signs" or "conincidences" aren't yes or no answers so I guess depending on your point of view you could interpet them either way....but then I always think about how the majority of ways God reveals Himself to us could be intereted both ways so I guess it's where faith comes into it.
My main questions are if the devil could be sending me these signs to misguide me/upset me more etc.
But then when I ask that it makes me wonder if God would allow me to go through so much hurt. Like He would know how much my hopes would be raised to be ultimatley crushed if these "signs" are from the devil. I know the devil can send us signs or messages to tempt us away from God but like what I'm asking for and being shown wouldn't lead me away from Him so I don't understand how it would be from the devil? just to cause me pain? And when I see the banana skins etc it makes me feel greatful to God and like He has listend and is answering me. Would I get that feeling if it was from the devil or just coincidence?
I know God has given us free will but like if I'm already really depressed about things surley he'd prevent so many coincidences from occuring.
(there have been other things but like I say I can't get into them now, I've feel behind with Uni work and have to go and catch up now).
Thank you all again for replying. Hopefully later on I can clarify anything if you need me to and hopefully this will help me to understand things a bit better.
God bless you all