Since my mind controls my body, my body controls my life


#1

i deleted what i was going to write but i know Jesus know what im trying to say

would someone pray for me i am catholic and i am mentally ill, mentally sick, mentally demented,

and alot of the demented stuff has coming out of my mouth and gone into mind as of tonight

if we’re in this world, but not of it

i feel like im the epitomy of being OF it

really i am destroying myself in lots of ways, smoking, drinking, pornography lots of evils entering my mind leaving my mouth my life sucks i dont even know why im alive

if 2 people prayed for me and the bible says it will be done for them then 2 people please pray for me to change my ways thats the best way i can say it
its killing me
and no good for anybody
i can go out in public and be this nice friendly guy and go home and be this sick perverted evil horny freak on the internet or on the phone chat line, i really am wasting my friggin life away with stuff my heart truely does not desire

not only that but the way i talk to people when i get mad at them ever since i was a child, something that only demons from hell would talk about

please…i will try to say some hail marys in my mind but i mean i dont know if just me doing it will help i can not do it on my own

my name is kevin
thank you so much im a good person with a ugly heart i am such a whore its disgusting the way i think or talk when i am horny

if you have prayers i can say on my own i would like to know them or the name of them i will look them up

but right now i will say some hail marys in my mind
yes i have felt some kind of heavenly power on my hands when i prayed the rosary before but dont have beads right now and i have also seen real live demons fly around my head in my mind in theyre own flesh red & black with wings

please help me with prayers for me
thank you :slight_smile:


#2

My deepest prayers are with you, you are in my prayers tonight and for the next five nights I will pray for you at this time.

Eternal Father i offer thee thy precious blood of thy divine son Jesus, In merit of his renewing resurection may he lay his healing hand on this child of his,

Jesus you have healed the blind, made the lame walk and expelled demons at a word, heal our brother so that he may be able to live in your word amen.


#3

You are obvioulsy a man of faith my brother, Come to christ Repent any of your sins, ask christ for your forgiveness go to confession.

You are on the path of christ because your are man of faith


#4

yeah ive been through alot the past 4 years

ive seen demons, ive seen things that wernt there, heard voices that wernt there from people that wernt there only in voice and visions
only in my head

ive learned alot of what i am today from the world i was born into
satans kingdom i guess youd say

just know i have had jesus change me in the past the christian way through tv but thats not who i am i wanna be catholic and i go to church every week lately but i mean communion and wine doesnt help me

somethings gotta give with me i dont know when the hell im gonna learn im 24 ive been on this planet 24 years now i think like satan alot i really do and can talk worse then him to people

really need some prayer ideas before i get to sleep i would like to read one and mediate on that 1


#5

Do not be discouraged if you don’t have the words. In Romans 8:26 is says “In the same way, the Spirit too comes to the aid of our weakness; for we do not know how to pray as we ought, but the Spirit itself intercedes with inexpressible groanings.”

Lord, God, Who have graciously chosen St. Dymphna to be the patroness of those afflicted with mental and nervous disorders, and have caused her to an inspiration and a symbol of charity to the thousands who invoke her intercession, grant, through the prayers of this pure , youthful martyr, relief and consolation to all who suffer from theses disturbances, and especially to those for whom we pray, your servant TigerFoxxwoods.

We beg You to accept and to satisfy the prayers of St. Dymphna on our behalf. Grant to those we have particularly recommended patience, in their sufferings and resignation to Your Divine Will. Fill them with hope and, if it be in accord with You Divine Plan, bestow upon them the cure they so earnestly desire. Through Christ, our Lord, Amen.

I have bipolar disorder, so I do have a really good idea of the anguish you are suffering. I pray you will find peace in your mind.

Ericka


#6

yeah right now i am trying to mentally talk and pray to mary because shes a woman and one of my biggest issues right now is desiring sex and she should help me alot i think since i dont truely want just anybody but have always settled for just anyone ive come across and am continueing to do that with my life

and i really want just that 1 special woman who would never hear me talk that way ever again to her or anyone else or for me to even think like that

ive got this internet addiction and chat line addiction lately i need to get a life really really bad its ruining my life because its taking it away and i aint got 1
just burning time doing same the **** over and over

thank you
god bless


#7

Jesus please give Your love and healing to Kevin.


#8

yeah mary i think is good to talk to you for me right now since my biggest issue is being a sex feend, is there something i could say to her ?

and she was a woman so … i think she understands how men are like how ive been my whole life a whore, a whore talker, a demonic minded kid and now adult
ive been confused as a kid about my beliefs like i said before i thought i was christian like on tv and i want to be just a regular good person who is on this earth, catholic.

thank you


#9

this is how i looked in 2004

boy was i mad looking person huh, this is how ive felt my whole life, always mad and angry

but yeah i wanna say something to mary is there anything to say to her in my shoes besides hail marys, i feel like a whore cause ive done alot of watching whores, talking to whores, talking like a whore, and even have been with whores, and dont wanna be this way any more its destroying me, my life and my future.

thank you soOoOOoo much!:thumbsup:


#10

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anyways this is who i am
this is who your praying for if you could
im halfway decent looking outside i think im kinda handsome just really ugly looking inside (my heart and my mind) and know i could do so much better with myself and find a beautiful woman to treat like a goddess

thank you again - kevin g.


#11

yup yupppp


#12

Trust me Kevin… You are not as bad of a person as you might think. You might not even be mentally ill. Porn can really screw up our minds. If you are listening to heavy metal/rap it can mess up your thinking too. Read through my other posts on porn and sins of impurity. You will find some good advice on how to turn this thing around!

Go to confession and empty your heart to the priest. Tell him that you want to get better and follow his instructions. You are worth it!

Great Saints of the church have struggled just like this during their youth. The fact that you are suffering with guilt and pain is an indication that you are on the road to salvation!

Be at peace little brother! God bless you.

:cool:


#13

Kevin:
Pray for the purity of your future wife whoever she my turn out to be. This will bring you peace too.

Kill the metal/rap music. It’s a lot like porn. It might taste great but it is poison for the soul.

:cool:


#14

yeah definitly music is a problem 4 me i think its got a hold on me as you probly see from how i dress haha

ive killed it in the past and changed from not listening to it then changed right back to that person who did nothing but watch porno listen to hardcore music and stuff

but i do listen to smooth jazz alot i guess more than rap or rock music these days

thank you:D


#15

Kevin, totally keep pouring your heart out to Mary with ruthless honesty. She will unquestionably bring you to the feet of Jesus and his compassion (in confession, in prayer) if you persist in praying to her. Pray without ceasing. Get to confession as soon as possible. You’re in my prayers today.


#16

Praying very hard for you!


#17

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