First of all, I want to apologize if I give too much detail, but I seriously need answers for this as I am confused and don’t know what do say in confession.
So I was sleeping, or rather half asleep, and I was masturbating. I am not sure if I was fully aware of it while I was doing it or not. I may have had a second or or two of realization about what I was doing, but as I said I am actually not sure.
Furthermore, I then fully woke up, and found myself that I was on my was to ejaculate. Now I had two choices as I was aware of: I could get out of bed even though I was drowsy to hinder it, which I most probably could have done, or I could just lay where I was and willfully let it happen. I chose the second option. Now, I know willfull masturbation is a mortal sin, but willfull ejaculation? What makes it worse is that I took pleasure in ejaculating.
Again, I am very sorry if I give too much detail, but I am not sure what to say to the priest in confession. I can’t just say I masturbated, because that wouldn’t necessarily tell the whole truth, would it? Also, I don’t know if it is a good idea to tell this whole story and give this much detail. I am scrupulous too so that doesn’t make this any easier for me either,
Thanks for your help.