[quote="brownbear, post:1, topic:321806"]
I don't post on this forum often but I figured this is a good place to post. I was in RCIA and I was baptized into the Catholic faith last Saturday during Easter Vigil. I was so excited and happy about the baptism during the whole Easter Vigil mass.
Now comes after mass. After we said a million thank you's to all the parishioners who congratulated us, we went back inside the church and took a group picture. I have many group pictures of all of us catechuments and candidates with the Father, Deacons, and sponsors. After that, we were asked to take off our white baptismal gown and after that, I totally forgot to take individual pictures of myself with the priest, myself with my sponsor, and myself with my mom! Oh my God I am so MAD at myself. When I realized this a few days later I literally stared at my pictures for almost an hour and wanted to cry, because I do not have individual pictures of myself with these important people alone, on such an important and special once in a lifetime date!
Am I being overly sensitive or what? Anyways I just want to vent about my stupidity and forgetfully here on a Catholic forum.
Hello brownbear! I wonder if you feel such sensitivity because you are worried that you somehow "got it wrong" in spite of your best intentions?
There were no photos at my Confirmation/First Communion. I entered seperately from the rest of the RCIA class (which chose to wait until the "big hoopla" of Easter Vigil), and I didn't even bother to wear anything nice. At the time I didn't want to make "too big" of a deal about it, thinking that too much excitement might leave me feeling depressed and let down afterwards. Looking back, after seeing the care and festivity that other people put into these types of experiences - especially the little girls in their "wedding" dresses at First Communion - I would have at least worn a nicer outift; that was my First Communion, even if I wasn't a cute 7-year-old anymore, even if I can't wear white. :D
There were a couple of other really small, silly things that seemed ludicrously painful, like a papercut that causes an insane amount of pain compared to its size. I think now that I was trusting in my own efforts (mainly anxiety, which doesn't do much good) to "get things right", as though I was worried that any imperfection would block the grace of God in my life. In actuality, the grace of God was already working, or I would never have desired to become Christian or Catholic in the first place; it is really God Who baptizes and confirms, it isn't something that anyone can do for themselves by worrying, and it can't be "messed up" by the little imperfect stuff. :shrug: