To make a very long story nice and short:
I am Lutheran (born and raised). I first felt God calling me to become a nun when I was 12...this persisted until I was about 14. I was always very devote and serious about my faith as a young girl. My teenage years were a really big struggle because I was bullied very badly in school and struggled with depression. During that time I fell away from church, and was just barely holding onto my faith. Around the time that I was 18, I started going to church again, but wasn't very serious about it. I have struggled with my faith in college, and didn't really come back to it until I was 22. I'm now 25, and I have been on a powerful journey the past year where I have felt myself growing ever closer to God.
Out of no where, I began feeling called to become a nun. It was weird when I was 12, and it's just as weird now! I'm not even Catholic! I would describe myself as having been anti-Catholic the past couple years, so it made even less sense to me that I should feel called to convert and join a religious order...:blush: :shrug:
The pull for me to convert has been really powerful...I've been resisting, but I just can't anymore. I can't explain the call for me to become a nun, I can't explain the call to convert...but I can really feel God drawing me into His church. I read online where one sister was talking to another young women who was worried that she missed God's call - to which the sister responded, "Don't worry, God always calls back!"
I feel like God is calling me back!
Here are my questions: 1) If I convert, how long would I have to wait before being able to enter a religious order? 2) I have over $30,000 of student loan debt that I have to pay off before entering novitiate, so does anyone have any advice about that?? 3) do convents still require an aspirant's family to pay a dowry upon entering?
I think I'll limit it to those questions for now...Thanks in advance!