She’s 20 years old, and I’m 24. I’m excited to have enjoyed a solid year with her, but she doesn’t think she’s ready for marriage. I can see it, because I can understand that she isn’t emotionally ready to get married, and neither is she spiritually ready. We’ve both graduated college, but only I’ve moved out yet. We’ve been chaste, mostly, and we’ve been progressively better about it as time goes on.
For my part, I’ve been overeager for the prospect — I worked with kids the first few years out of college, and I love the little devils, so I have no illusions — but to cool my heels I’ve been trying hard, still, to discern the right vocation God intends for me, married or otherwise. On top of this I’m a recent revert, as of the Feast of Christ the King, so zealous is pretty much how I handle matters of faith. I’m conscious of this shortcoming, so I’ve been able, for the most part, to compensate.
All it took, though, was the wedding reception yesterday and a blog post the day before and I’m feeling very put out and almost impatient. I know that in our particular situation that, whatever I feel, we shouldn’t get married for at least another two years, or engaged before she turns 21.
This is a confused situation; I’m not sure I’m stringing even two sentences together coherently. I would have some guidance. Thanks in advance.