It’s not as bad as the title sounds, but I feel it’s an important problem. I feel like there is something missing in my everyday life, my interactions with others and the world. Something that should come from God. Now I am a true believer of God, I have been Catholic all my life, and there is no way I will ever change that. I just want to enrich my religious life and I think that the rest of my life will become better after that. But I feel like that in order to do that, I need something from God, something that I’m not quite getting.
By the way, I’m 16 years old, and I live in California in the US. Anyways, in my normal life, in doing homework, getting completely “into” mass (sorry, can’t think of a better word, almost like involved or all hyped up/excited about), getting up in the morning, and especially resisting certain types of sins, I have troubles with each, like I can’t start or like I don’t have the will to. In the past, there have been times in which I would be inspired to start doing or stop doing the things listed above. However, it was only temporary and lasted for just a few weeks or so. I was inspired by specific events or by worldly things. those inspirations came from someone I met (I had known the person just for a day), listening to really good music that helped me overcome my dislike of the homework, and looking ahead to play on the PS2 and getting homework done quicker.
HOWEVER, what I just found out where I really want my inspiration to come from is God. I know God will be able to provide me with the everyday inspiration, but I don’t know how to get it. Everything else is there, except that extra inspiration. I feel that I can not do it alone, just knowing that God is by me isn’t enough. I feel that even though God gave me all the talents I have which let me do all that I can with advanced classes (I am an honor student, and have a lot of work), I feel that I need a little more inspiration/push from God to help me with the hard assignments from classes which I almost absolutely despise or assignments that are just tedious that I don’t feel like doing. I feel that this little inspiration can assist my will and want to do it, because I do try but I feel like I’m doing it alone.
That little extra help from God will then let me do everything else that I’ve been holding back because those other tasks have just been too much of a burden and having someone next to me doing those things will be it. I would be soooo much thankful of the Lord, not that I already am thankful, but it would then lead me to pray to him so much more and actually every night, lead me to be able to become a better person in turn all the way around. Please people, if you have any ideas at all, maybe a prayer or something that I have no clue about, then let me know, especially if you have had this experience before and you know what I’m talking about, you know how to get to where I wanna go. Please, I only want the truth, it won’t hurt me if no one actually had this experience, but if you say you did, then I will believe you. Also, I would prefer if you gave me something other than my ideas to a possible solution, but if you know a prayer, then by all means, post it. Another thing, I don’t want just like encouraging words or something that I can’t hold onto that won’t provide this spark. Encouraging words I will accept, but not something like “My solution is that you just have to keep going”. I will accept encouraging words and stuff, just don’t make that your solution, acknowledgment I will accept, but yeah anyways, tell me what you guys got. Thank you though so much for any replies.