Does anyone else feel like being a “good” person is elusive to those who are not either very wealthy, privileged, and well-connected or very poor? Allow me to explain…
The wealthy and privileged can make great gestures and literally influence/save/better hundreds of thousands, if not millions, in their lifetime. They can start charities and make massive donations or speak out about a cause and a monsoon of praises falls upon them even if the impact to their own wealth relative to what they need to survive is fairly minimal.
The well-connected can become movers and shakers who work tirelessly for cause x and mission y and bring about great change by their actions.
The very poor have limited resources, but they can still give of themselves. In fact, a small gesture often means more than it would coming from someone of greater means when someone has fewer resources.
But those in the middle…the ones who don’t have enough to make the world turn, but aren’t quite in a position where they’d be able to make another’s world turn by offering their last penny for another hungry person’s dinner…what of us? Can we ever truly be worthy in the eyes of God? Especially if we’re not doing other self-sacrificing things, like raising a family or working tirelessly at a non-profit or for another cause…sometimes I wonder why we even bother. Every time I try and be a “good person” I feel like a fraud who can never quite be good. To be honest…sometimes I just feel like I should give up and not even try. There’s no call on my life, no center, no purpose- and, quite frankly, it doesn’t look like there’s ever going to be. I just feel like a forgotten extra thing doing its best to survive but isn’t living up to some standard that I cannot even see. I can’t go to the Church with this- all I hear from the Church is that I’m selfish for not being married and/or a parent, selfish for ever committing any kind of sin, and selfish for being an introvert.
Does anyone else feel like this at all? Has anyone ever felt like this?