I'm actually discerning towards a vocation with the Jesuits and am undergoing spiritual direction under a Jesuit Father, though my next meeting is only towards the end of June due to my exams and his busy schedule as well. I've come up with a bit of a conundrum since my last meeting and was wondering if anyone else had the same experiences.
He told me to listen to what God is telling me, to be more open to God communicating to me. And I've tried to do that, but I'm probably doing it wrongly. What I feel, and this is a little hard to describe, is God's presence - not like an emptiness or anything - I feel that God is there, but I don't think He is, strictly speaking, telling me anything. It's like I'm asking and He's remaining silent. On purpose. It's not like I feel abandoned. I just feel like I'm waiting and waiting on the edge and the answer is just within reach but try as I might, I can't grasp it. Not sure if that makes sense.
Also, and this I should have asked him in our last session, how do you know whether it's God telling you something, or whether it's just your own voice or coincidence in daily life? How do you distinguish God's voice from everything else? I feel like I want to be a priest, but I'm unworthy of the priesthood, and there's a cynical part of me that says "Maybe I want to be a priest but I'm not called". Is that me talking to me or God literally talking to me?