I was looking for some advice on something I know very little about.
In looking for a spiritual director, is a person better off going with someone that they do not know or have contact with on a daily basis so as to decrease the possibility of awkwardness and possible embarrassment?
Here’s my situation… I feel very drawn to a certain priest. Like he’s possibly been put in my life for a specific reason. I don’t know if other people here believe that God puts people in your life, and that there are not very many coincidences but more towards the fate perspective- but I very much believe that. There has been a couple things happen to make me feel that God was the one who brought me to this man.
There have been many spiritual awakenings I guess you could call them that have taken place in me over the last year or so that lead me to believe that I do need a spiritual director to keep me from being misled, and help me grow in God’s wisdom. I’ve been putting off finding one for the last 4 months or so, because first I don’t know who I should talk to, and secondly because I’m a little afraid that whoever I go to will think I’m nuts or something and then if I see them on the street it will be awkward. So originally I tried to think of ways I could find answers to me questions anonymously, but then this priest came into my life that has really shown a very loving concern for me out of the blue without me even coming to him with any problems. I’m just afraid, because I think so much of him, and because he seems to think something of me too, that if he were to become my spiritual director he’d know the real me-the me that doesn’t always have her act together, and gets things messed up in her head sometimes. Then possibly we wouldn’t be able to have the same sort of relationship.
Does anyone have any advice for a lost soul? It would be much appreciated!