I have been struggling emotionally with this lately… can anyone offer some advice?
When I met my wife about 10 years ago, I was a different man. We were both Catholic and regular churchgoers, but my faith was not nearly where it is now. When we got married five years ago, we both agreed that birth control pills would be our best option.
After experiencing a renewal of faith… of sorts, reading Catholic literature, and learning more, I have decided that we should not be using birth control. After the birth of our daughter last March, I ordered the CCL home study course and we began studying NFP… me more than she. When my wife went to the doctor for her checkup one month after giving birth, the Dr. convinced her that NFP is notoriously ineffective and strengthened my wife’s belief that birth control is the same as the body’s natural processes. She believes that the pill prevents fertilization and bristles at my objections due to implantation prevention. Ever since, my wife has continued with the birth control pills.
My wife is a beautiful person with great personal faith. These discussions have really hurt our marriage, so I have felt forced to back off and simply pray.
I am horribly torn right now… Even to the point of planning “relations” for times when she should not be fertile just to try to ensure that we are not causing an abortion by failed implantation.
What can I do? I love my family so much! I don’t want to hurt our marriage, but I don’t want either of us to go to Hell.