hello everybody. I m currently discerning with a religious order that is considered to be “conservative”.
but i have a problem. i have same sex attractions. it’s a curse for me and i am so troubled. do you think the order would accept me?
don’t get me wrong, i am not gay. i reject gay culture, gay lifestyle and anything that is indecent and immoral. i was in love with opposite sex (almost twice; once very madly) but never pursued it because they are committed in some ways.
the attractions aren’t really strong and i could brush it off and get over it although it is not always easy. by the way i am almost 20.
do you think i would be rejected? the order is a clerical order so almost everybody gets ordained.
please pray for me.