I have made my first confession and during it confessed impure thoughts associated with SSA
I have NOT had a SS Relationship - and don’t want to - only relationship was 14 years ago - a long term girlfiend , i was living in sin for which i am sorry too (who i loved and still do) . At the moment i am practicing celibacy but since relationship breakdown have had troubles with acts of “self impurity”
Is it wrong to keep this side of myself secret from people i know - even deny it - i think i have even denied it myself
I only have a couple of close friends and they have always been anti-SS (they are non-believers) - they may well desert me for a start if i own up to this , there’s a lot bigotry in the world
I have always hoped to be married (hetero) with possibility of children , and still am attracted to opposite sex , but this side of me prevents me trying to get close to anyone - consequentally i am extremely shy , in any case what woman would want me knowing i have these attractions (now past 40)
Should i carry this cross secretly?
I have started going to church this year after 40 years and have confessed to a priest the impure thoughts etc, but wonder if it is even wrong to keep this secret from my brothers and sisters in Christ (some have noticed i am single and suggested i become a priest!!! perhaps i owe it to them to let them know)
I pray regularly whenever any temptation occurs and the good news is prayer has certainly helped in that i am at present staying away from “impure acts on self” for the longest period ever - months now , my intent is to stay celibate forever unless marriage - please pray for me!