Hi, I went to therapy Friday (1st session)
My therapist revealed alot about what is wrong & as much as I want to heal from my constant worry, Im afraid to dig deeper. What else will I find & will it hinder my healing…Has anyone else dealt with these question after starting therapy?
I knew I had OCD before I went to therapy, Ive had it since I was a child. Ive just learned coping skills to deal with it & somedays are eaiser than others. That explains why I worry about everything in excess! I have learned to see my OCD as a blessing instead of a curse & that has helped me tremendously!
We dug up some ugliness from my past that I didnt realize was even an issue? I hurt a lof of people, mostly myself & it explains why I am mildly depressed & havent attempted to lose weight. I am judging myself harshly & realized that I dont trust myself. I need constant reassurance…Anyway,
I know that I am a child of God & he has forgiven me of my sins- but I have not forgiven myself. No wonder my walk with God has been such a struggle for me.