Today at my school, there was an opportunity for confession during the lunch hours, so I decided to go since my last confession wasn’t the greatest. I’ve been battling this one sin for a while, and I finally got the guts to confess it. It’s one of those sins where once you’re into it, it’s really hard to get out of, and so once I realized how truly bad it is, I started feeling extremely guilty.
So, for about three months now, I’d felt extremely guilty. I went to confession about it and bared my soul to the priest, and when he absolved me, I expected to feel the weight lifted off my shoulders, right?
WRONG. I felt relieved for about two seconds, then I started feeling guilty again! Not in the severity as it was before confession, but enough to know that it’s still there.
I know that faith shouldn’t be based on just emotions [my old youth group leader always told me there was more to faith than just emotions], but I don’t understand why I’m still guilty. I keep telling myself that Jesus loves me & He forgives me, and maybe things will change by the time I go to adoration this weekend, but I don’t like still feeling guilty. Is this normal? Is this wrong?
Also, I’ve done some reading up on this, and I’ve read that Satan does this to keep away the peace that comes from absolution, and also something about temporal punishment. But that doesn’t quite change things.