Im wondering about your opinions in a certain matter.
You see, last autumn I started at school (university), but I unfortunately did quit simply due to the lack of interess and stamina.
This Im embarrassed about, you see it has happened before:(
And due to my embarrassment I automatically lie when the subject come up/ occurre.
Im simply to ashamed of it.
It’s like Im no good, you see I judge myself harsh as I hate my never ending failure academicly and I also struggle to keep my job.
So at some point it’s heavily depressing.
On the other hand Im wondering about whethèr or not this may be a test by God to see if Im fitted to live my life in a monastery.
I sometimes feel called to be a Franciscan or a Benedictine munk, but I don’t know.
Anyway, my question is as following:
May I recieve communion given the fact that Im continouesly lying about my studies and so on?
Is it a mortal sin even though it doesn’t harm anybody?
I feel sorry for lying so I could do a sincere confession about it, but I know (unfortunately) that Im very likely to do it again when the subject occurres.
Thanks for any input:)
And I know it’s a difficult topic and that I should’ve been discussed with a priest, but Im just interested in what’s your opinions.
Thanks in advance for any answers I may recieve:)
Yours in Jesus and Mary