Ok so I am 16 and here is my problem so a while ago two old ladies at church said something to me along the lines of I would make a good priest, and a trainee priest said that for some reason I just seem really Holy he said there is something about me, that just seems Holy.
Heres the deal though is I want and have wanted for a very long time to have a family and to be a father and a husband and so I thought that because I was drawn so strongly to wanting to be a father and a husband that my vocation was that of marriage and family life, and that’s what God had planned for me, and was just thinking I was over thinking the comments made about priesthood, and was just thinking they was compliments about my character.
So I was praying to God asking him for forgiveness in case I have offended him by not wanting to be a priest, and asked him to help me achieve the vocation of marriage and family life as that was what I think is my vocation and what I am supposed to do.
But today in Mass my priest said a reading in which he talked about afterwards is that, we must let God do everything for us and not want to change our own destiny, otherwise we will not fit through a narrow door, and I’m guessing that narrow door is heaven.
See and now I am stressing out, because of the compliments, things on TV and as I am stressing out about it, I am thinking about it more and so now I am stressing out because of the whole “We shouldn’t want to change our own destiny”, and that’s the thing I still want to get married and have children and raise them correctly but now because of the things people have said to me I am stressing out that the lord wants me to be a priest just because of a few compliments that people have said, and that saddens me deeply as I very much still want to be a father and a husband and I do not want to become a priest.
Basically what I am asking you is, please do you think I am other thinking this too much and just because some people may have said that I’m holy or I would make a good priest it doesn’t mean I have to become a priest, and that’s the thing as well I want to be a Dad and a Husband and raise my children in the faith and in correct morals, and not be a priest for one I don’t think that if I was to be a priest, I wouldn’t be able to serve it whole heartily as it is not what I want to do.
Also I might add that I only even thought and starting stressing out when those old ladies gave me that compliment and the thought never really even popped in to my head prior to the compliment.
So yes please if you could just tell me if I am over thinking this, I must add also that I do feel that I suffer with anxiety and so I do have a tendency to stress out a lot about things and over think things, like health problems and such so is it a possibility it is what I am doing here.
And before any of you say it my normal priest is not going to be taking mass until 2 weeks time so that is why I have not talked to him, but please could you help me.
And also I hate to ask this but could you please pray for me to help ease my stress and anxieties on this matter.
May the lord watch over, guide and protect all of you.