I know people have callings to the religious life, but I’m a little bit confused about my case. Doesn’t God give us free will to do what we want? What if I don’t want to go into the religious life? Ok, deep down, I have a really strong feeling telling me to go and become a priest or monk. I’ve prayed in church many times for guidance, and today it was so overwhelming, I need to act on this. I know God has a master plan and extends his hand to us when we need help, but I’ve been praying desperately for a good girlfriend, and to be a better person. On the flipside, what if I was an amazing spiritual teacher? What if I really made a change in the world instead of raising a family, not discrediting that, but just saying. The answer is, I need to pray more. I really wish God could just give me a clear sign of what to do. Like a dream, or some kind of very distinct indication. I realize my faith sounds shaky, but it’s not easy.
For those of you who acted upon your calling, please tell me that ‘deciding factor’ of yours. Did you just decide “ok, I should be in the religious life, maybe I’d be good for it” or were you 100% convinced like you just saw a ghost that this was the thing for you?