I do a fair amount of searching these forums, and I swear I’ve read the same 3 threads about people having a hard time in the secular world at least 5x each.
How does everyone here have such an easy time living in the secular world? I know I don’t.
I just had a job interview yesterday. And, I got a job. I am thankful, but I guess I’m just struggling with uncertainty now.
I’m basically a college dropout, and I got a job at a restaurant. I’ll be making minimum wage to make sandwiches. I’ll be doing that this semester. And, I really don’t see why I’d come back to school…
I don’t want to live in the secular world. I don’t want a secular degree for a secular job. I want to serve the Church. OK? I am homosexual. I have SSA, and I won’t have any children. So… the fulfillment that I’m sure many of you get from being parents and raising a family is not something I have to look forward to.
What else is there then? Why should I work so hard to get a degree (in political science), just to get some secular job somewhere? I could find some rightist political organization and work for them, but I believe there is no political solution to our country’s problems.
Getting a job with Rick Santorum would appeal to me, but its not like a bunch of materialistic secularists who don’t attend Church can simply be persuaded to vote for the political beliefs of Rick Santorum. No… the only way Santorum wins is if our society is converted, is if they’re brought to the cross.
So… what I’m saying is, I’m struggling with the meaning of my life.
I want my life to matter. And, in my mind, the only way it will matter is if I participate, Full-time in the New Evangelization.
Please, if you’re interested in helping me, maybe read some of the other threads I’ve posted in the past 2 months.
I’ve been experiencing anxiety and depression, and this week, I thought, perhaps its because of this. Sure, its logical that I get a degree… but, most people are either A) going to have a family that a degree would help them provide for or B) Homosexuals and people who won’t have children, but want to pursue money and materialism.
I’m interested in serving God.**
How do I not waste my life? If I just work a secular job, then retire and die, then that’s a waste of my life.
I don’t want to waste my life, I don’t want to settle for mediocrity, I want to be a saint and serve God… what can I do? What are my options?
You’d be amazed at how little the priests I’ve talked to have been able to answer that question. There seems to be nowhere where I can go to serve the Church. All the volunteering things I looked into said no, or later. So…
I’m relegated to minimum wage. It seems unlikely I’ll get a degree. And I’ll almost certainly (99%) not have a family…
What is the vocation of someone with SSA?