Hello, I have posted on this board in the past under a different name. In order to protect my wife’s identity I’ve changed it.
I need prayers and any advice that I can get.
Short version: Married almost 8 years, 4 children. My problems include alcohol abuse, 21 year addiction to pornography, anger problems, self-hate, severe anxiety, and last week I was involved in a head-on collision with a drunk driver and received minor injuries. Her problems include severe alcohol abuse, sexual abuse as a child, multiple cases of date rape, one instance of gang rape, methamphetamine abuse, promiscuity, adultery, self-hate, attempted suicide, and bi-polar disorder.
She is currently in a psychiatric hospital, and I simply feel so inadequate and weak because there is nothing I can do to help her. I have been sober for 45 days now, and off the pornography and self abuse for 33 days. I’m also struggling with a lot of loneliness and spiritual dryness, as well as an intense desire for intimate female companionship and affection.
Anyone have any advice or support they can offer? I’m not sure where to turn. I’ve got a therapist, spiritual director, good pastor, and friends, however I feel as if I need to find a support group for spouses or families of sexual abuse victims.
Thank you, and God bless.