Im really struggling with something and I was hoping that you could give me some advice or say a prayer for me… I’d appreciate that so much.
I’m a convert to the Church and I went through a difficult conversion filled with doubt. I haven’t doubted it for a long, long time though. For a while I’ve just been focusing on being a good Catholic.
But today, there seem to be 2 things that are really bothering me, and even giving me doubt about the Church and my conversion I’m not sure how to deal with them…
the first, is this:
I recently read this thread: forums.catholic.com/showthread.php?t=352457
and it’s really confused me. It seems that the position of the Church on this matter has changed??? But I don’t understand how that can be, if the Church is guided by the Holy Spirit or does it not matter in this case cause we’re not talking about dogma? I’m so lost
both views on unbaptized babies seem to make sense to me… Christ did say, that we need to be baptized… on the other hand, would He not be merciful to those who never got a chance to accept OR reject Him? and it seems that there are Church statements to support BOTH views…so which one is true?
I have to say that this is really bothering me, because …well I know that before I was born, my parents also had another child, and he died as an infant so I have a brother. I always supposed that he is in Heaven and I looked forward to meeting him someday. But then some Church councils are saying that this would not be possible, and that he’s not in Heaven? This is really causing me pain but if I accept what the current Catechism says, and just leave him to God’s mercy, then do I have to reject what the councils said in the past? why is there this contradiction in Church teaching?
and what abuot all the babies who die before birth… from abortion or miscarriage…
I just don’t know what to think anymore. I’m sorry this is so long…
my other problem that is causing me to doubt is how in so many parishes the Mass is not celebrated with reverence and there is so much liberalism/liturgical abuse… I know the devil is attacking the Church, but why is the Church not immune to this particular attack, and the Orthodox church seemingly is? in the East, it seems there is no liturgical abuse, though they have other problems of course.
I’m just really tired… I’m sorry for complaining, but I don’t really know who to talk to. Thanks so much for reading.
during my conversion, I was told so much stuff, like how i’ll be going to hell for being Catholic, and how I’m “grieving my Guardian Angel” etc, and now it’s all coming back…