You being saved in this case would be you putting God’s will over your own. If you put your will over his, you aren’t worthy which means you aren’t saved. He can change that, but until you cooperate you aren’t going to heaven.
No one is fully saved until the end. When they persevere and are judged based on their love of God, thats when they are saved.
If you love yourself more than God, and don’t desire to change that is telling us that you don’t love God.