Hi everyone, I’m new here so I hope I’m posting in the right spot!
I am a 15 year old girl (soon to be 16) and I am Catholic and very committed to my faith. People my age usually think of a faith-committed person like me to be weird and uptight, but everyone thinks of me as normal.
I know it’s a weird question I’m gonna ask. But don’t get me wrong because I am not insecure at all and I have high self-esteem unlike a lot of girls my age.
As I have gotten into my teenage years my mind and my body have matured a lot. I think of myself as beautiful with a great body and my friends (guys and girls) agree. So naturally I care a lot about fashion and style. So I know that to be considered fashionable and stylish and modern, wearing a bikini is important.
But I have struggled with myself over what is okay and what crosses the line. I have always been taught that you can be both modern and modest. I went shopping right before summer started and picked out a nice, stylish, modest bikini – modest in that I didn’t reveal anything beyond the basic definition of a bikini.
But when I started hanging out at the pool with my friends I felt kind of outdated – girls my age wear bikinis that reveal a lot more.
So, wanting to keep up, I bought a more risque bikini. It revealed more of my boobs and showed more skin but it was still nice and didn’t look sl*tty. I felt sexy when I wore it and I felt I fit in while still looking elegant. The problem was, I noticed that guys treated me different when I wore it. They seemed to treat me more sexually. I liked it at first – it made me feel rebellious. But by the end of summer it became too much.
So here is my question. One of my girl friends has a indoor pool party coming up in a couple of weeks and no guys will be there. That means I don’t have to deal with guys treating me sexually. It also means that I will have to deal with my girl friends who aren’t wearing the most modest swimsuits around. Don’t get me wrong, my girl friends are great and they wouldn’t ostracize me for being a little old fashioned. But I just feel outdated if I don’t go along with the latest styles.
The big question is whether it is still important to dress modestly if you’ll be around people who won’t look at you sexually.
I know I didn’t explain it the best but please don’t judge me. I am just a teenage girl who is torn between strictly following my faith and pushing the envelope a little to keep up in today’s world.