My husband can be a horrible, overdramatic, narcisist. Sorry to be blunt but it’s true. He is hard to live with and deal with and I spend most of my time away from him. I can’t change him and we have kids to I put up with it and avoid him. That’s not my main issue though for this post (to those that want to give advice on that, let me just add that speaking to several priests together about his attitude has done nothing to change him, so I don’t really need advice on him and how to deal with him because it will do no good).
My issue is that when I get REALLY upset I tend to go and buy myself a little $50 or so gift - I don’t know why but it makes me feel better. I lost some jewlery that was special to me and I made a promise that (and this was a few years ago) I would not buy any more jewlery myself (that if someone gave something that was okay) if God would help me (stupid I know, but I did it anyway) - I don’t even remember the specifics anymore of what I promised.
I’ve done pretty good with it and not bought myself jewlery because I promised God I wouldn’t. But today my husband is pushing me over the edge and I am ready to snap - I am feeling the urge to go and get something that makes me happy (jewlelry) and I’m trying to fight it because I don’t want to go back on my word to God. Can someone offer me some words of wisdom? I feel like I’m going to snap