About two months ago, I reverted back into the faith and started to try to have a serious prayer life. I very much wanted to turn my life around to love God. After a few confessions, I started to pray a rosary every once in a while during the week, but I felt like I wanted to pray more, then moved onto a daily rosary. Praying this daily rosary felt like it was actually helping - that I was going somewhere with my spiritual life. Afterward, then, I decided to try praying a full rosary every day, mysteries placed throughout the day, and for the first few days, it worked well for the first few days.
But now, I don’t really know what happened. I had a lot of fervor and hope (hope being a sort of wanting to love God and to be with Him some day is the way I understand it). Now, though, that fervor and hope have drastically reduced, prayer has become something of a ‘rule’, whereas before I would go into prayer with joy, now I try my hardest to focus and to pay attention but there are so many distractions of the most random things possible.
There are times where I’ll watch a video or read something online and it’ll ignite a spark in me again, and I use that to pray fervently during the day. But when I go to bed and wake up the next day, that fervor and hope totally vanish, and so it feels like I’m on a sort of spiritual escalator. I go up at the same speed that the escalator goes down, or I bounce up and down the escalator but never truly start going up.
What can I do to start going up the escalator faster than it goes down? Anything I can read, any saints to pray to? Thank you in advance for any advice.