I am feeling better, and I feel that my understanding of God has indeed been wrong, and that God is loving and merciful. It doesn’t make sense for Him to be otherwise. And if He is not loving and merciful, then we’re all damned anyway so why worry?
PLEASE continue to pray for me, because I am not over scrupulosity by far. I’m afraid now that I am turning back to God, scrupulosity will take over and make it a living Hell for me. (I’ll start thinking of all the things I did wrong, making lists of sins to confess etc. and before long I’ll be naseous and overwhelmed. )
I’m also really drained psychologically now, so I won’t be able to respond to people’s private messages for a while. I’m really grateful for everyone’s private messages Thank you for caring about me and for being supportive.
Please continue to pray for me, and ask everyone you know to pray for me as well! I really, really, really need it.