I’ve been thinking about children and people with special needs a lot lately. This is no suprise since my own oldest boy is autistic. He has really forced me to rethink many of my assumptions about God. And, looking back, Blake may have really influenced me to turn toward Catholicism.
I can’t help but think that God is giving me a preview of how humanity must look in his eyes. Beautiful and, to some extent, so totally innocent of the things that have been thrust upon us due to the actions of others before us.
I can’t help but think of the passage where Jesus says, “…how often I have longed to gather your children together, as a hen gathers her chicks under her wings, but you were not willing.”
I’m not saying that these children and people are sinful. Rather, on the contrary, I’m thinking of the frustration that they feel. I also think of the frustration that God must feel when he so desires to help us, and we simply cannot help but fail to understand his good intentions. I know, as a parent, I feel this way a lot.
When I look at the frustration my own son must feel, wanting to say things and express his thoughts, and yet being unable to, he must feel so lonely sometimes-- no matter how much we try to help him and reach out to him.
Sometimes I pray that God would remove his autism from him and thrust it upon me-- even if I could just know what it was like to go through this and understand it better, if not permanently.
I can’t help but think we’re all a little bit autistic in God’s eyes, feeling alone and lost, and I think he desires so much to get into our hearts and minds, to understand us and live amongst us, to show us how to do the things he desires us to do.
I think Jesus’ incarnation is for this very reason. We do not have a high priest who is unable to sympathize with our weaknesses. But we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet was without sin. I don’t think God could’ve fully understood the struggle that humanity was going through without him incarnating himself as true God and true man be honest.