To understand where I in trying to discern if the Catholic church is right for me some background info might be helpful. This may not be the right board for this post… I’ve been searching around and couldn’t find a “beginner’s issues for converting to Catholicism forum.”
My name is Joe and I am sincerely interested in the Catholic church. I am 32 years old and work as a salesman. I am a cancer survivor, having had a serious fight with Lymphoma in 2013, resulting in 9+ months of chemo/radiation. I am now cancer free. I was baptized in the Catholic church but my parents divorced due to infidelity when I was 4 and I was never confirmed. My mother remarried my stepfather, who has been a hero in my life. I then was raised in a Presbyterian church until I was about 14, when I stopped going. I have been away from Christianity as a whole until about 8 months ago, when the writings of CS Lewis made me question everything I had rejected about the faith. As such, I started exploring the American version of his church, the Episcopal church. My mom was overjoyed that I started going back to church and had such a sincere interest, and we’ve begun going together, which is very important to me, that we can go together. All this time, for the last year, I have been living with my girlfriend. She was very upset at my interest in Christianity, all the time I was spending researching it, and my commitment to finding the right church for me. I prayed and prayed on it, asking for resolution one way or the other (that she would either find a sincere interest herself or the relationship would end) and we broke up about a month ago. Now I find myself very isolated and alone feeling a lot of the time. I work irregular hours, usually from 12-9, so going to evening church functions and meeting like minded people is difficult.
I have a sincere interest in Catholicism. I feel drawn to it. I am a very intellectual person and have been reading about it a lot, learning a lot. I don’t want my mom and I to not be able to go to church together, and it would hurt me, and be too much for her to bear, to have to call her marriage with my stepfather a sin and a bad thing when my father was so cruel to her, and refused to leave his mistress who was almost half his age, trying to force my mother to be the woman on the side, and my stepfather has been such an honest, loyal, loving husband to her. It would break both of our hearts and feel like a betrayal to him to have to do that.
This seems to be the first impediment to my returning to the Catholic church. I go to an Episcopal Church, but sometimes I feel like I go because it is simply the closest to Catholicism. This may not be the right place to post all this, but I looked around and couldn’t seem to find the right spot.
Thank you for your time. This is a little rambling, and there are several issues I need to clear up, but this is one of the biggest.