I have been receiving the Eucharist on the tongue for about a year now, after our Priest had given a homily on showing reverence for the Blessed Sacrament. I would say that 90% of the parishioners receive in the hand, but I have felt a strong urge to receive on the tongue.
This morning the Deacon placed the Host on my tongue and it fell out! Thank goodness he was able to catch it and so Jesus was not on the floor. But, I was so shocked I just exclaimed “oh my heavens!” before the Deacon caught it and then placed it back on my tongue.
I have been extremely upset all day and can’t stop thinking about it. I didn’t understand how this happened and I’ve been running it over and over through my mind. Did I fail to open my mouth enough or fail to stick my tongue out enough? Or did the Deacon not place it correctly? I even thought that maybe I was unworthy because it seemed like Jesus jumped out of my mouth; although I dismissed this thought quickly because I just went to confession last week for Divine Mercy Sunday and felt sure I was still in a state of grace.
Now I’m afraid to receive on the tongue again. I can’t believe this happened to me and I’m having trouble getting over it.