So, I am a young man just about ready to graduate college and I have a weight that I am carrying that I can’t seem to get rid of. While at school I gained a lot of experience dating as well as made a few mistakes with girls. Suffice it to say that I got a little too close to a couple of them (arguably sex, arguably not), and I feel as though some of the mistakes I have made still haunt me. I am a recent ‘revert’ to the Church so I have Confessed all of these faults and turned away from this sinful part of my life, but images of these situations often pop into my head and leave me with a lasting, intense feeling of guilt that I don’t feel like I will ever be free of. I am worried that this intense guilt will follow me into future relationships and possibly into marriage, where I would guess that it would cause some problems in the relationship that I will have with my wife.
At this point I’m not exactly sure in which direction I should proceed, I offer up daily Masses for it and have prayed plenty over the matter. Does anyone have any experience with this type of situation and would be able to offer up some advice? I appreciate it.