I started praying the rosary a while back, for the first time in my life. I am drawn to it, and on days when I have failed to pray it due to time or to tiredness I miss it.
Yet, here’s the strange part: the rosary hurts my brain. Painful sensations pulse right up in the right hand top side of my head. Additionally, my chest tightens. I am driven at times to get up and walk around as I pray it, in an attempt to “walk it off.”
I note that if I rush through the prayers in rote fashion, without meditation, just ticking them off, these sensations abate. What I wind up doing is this: putting the pedal down, so to speak, until I get uncomfortable with the pain, then letting it up and ticking off the prayers until I feel more comfortable, then putting the pedal back down again. The rosary then becomes like a strange pain management program.
Now I don’t like this part where I wind up backing off and going rote. But really the intensity of physical feeling that comes along kind of forces me to, out of fear mainly. To me this is kind of freaky and I don’t know to make of it. I’ve never experienced anything remotely like this before, and it’s unsettling. I’ve never been one to have any sort of these experiences related to prayer, churchgoing, or anything really.
Here are my questions:
- Does this happen to anybody else?
- Should I see a doctor?
- Has anybody heard of such a thing elsewhere?