[quote="john78, post:1, topic:282758"]
I am a 33 yr old male,
And I have just begun praying the Rosary, I have started a week ago and the results are amazing for me in this fight. The results have taken place and I really didnt realize it until reflecting back and seeing the changes .
And I hope this will inspire others, hopefully men who are struggling with pornography/internet pornography and the various forms of internet pornography.
My problem with pornography has been one ever since i was young and some how for one reason or another , either searched for it or stumbled upon it.
Now granted as human beings we do go through a hormonal state, and subduing urges of a sexual nature may not seem possible, but turning away from pornography is and we should for many reasons.
In my opinion and many may already know this, this isnt for those that know but for those who may be wondering why they should consider giving up pornography.
It simply distorts ones view towards an intimate relationship between a loving couple joined in marrage. That and for me as a man and even a young teen, it really warped how I viewed women and girls when i was growing up.
I fought this problem for a long time through prayer, I am finally coming close to ending it and it has been through the help of our Blessed Mother Mary and her Rosary.
Such a simple looking tool for prayer, but such an overwhelmingly powerful means of combating real vice and sin and evil.
I really am amazed.
I had a problem online tonight not long before I started this thread, involving pornography..
and I realized i had not prayed my Rosary as of yet, and I turned to my Rosary and Mary for help, I felt as if there was a converstation going on in my mind, hearing laughter and thoughts of I got you, with me replying no you didnt look at me i am in prayer ,, and more laughter and a response of I almost got you, i shook it off figureing nothing worth focusing on and to continue praying, and then hearing , see it isnt that hard, you are doing it.
I can only wonder how much was imagination and how much was something more, but it has hit me hard, on top of that i threw out my last pornographic dvd tonight too, infact just before i prayed the Rosary, as proof to myself that I will continue to make this commitment to praying my Rosary .
I am seeing now that my issues with pornography are resulting primarly at night, and that is when I need to concentrate my time to pray the most.
Pornography has been such a terrible demon in my life, and I seriously, and sincerely, ask those young men and men, who are here struggling with it, and have felt the shame and guilt either before, during or after or maybe all .....
there is a way out, Pornography is not as strong as it appears, I was the one holding on to pornography, not the other way around.
I may slip from time to time, I dont know how much longer it will take to get it fully out of my life, but I know that the Rosary and Mary have been a shattering and powerful presence in helping me. And I am positive that the longer I continue praying the Rosary and trusting Mary and her promise that it will end and that I will be able to live a better life helping others to my full potential.
I didnt take the time to put this up for any kudos, I hope that this reaches someone who has struggled with this , who has sat there saying this isnt me, why am i doing this to myself and feeling as if some demon is turning you into some disgusting creature that is less than a human.
Learn to pray the Rosary, find a quite place, and give it a shot, and not just once, give it a good week and see if you feel any different, because I know i have changed in just one week.
It has been a long road for me in this battle, if I did hear someone to tell me to pray the Rosary before this, I wish i had listened, I could have ended my suffering a lot quicker and sooner. But I suppose a reason for everything, an I am greatful for this moment and greatful I didn't give up. I hope someone else gives it serious consideration and this awesome gift/ and tool, a chance to work for him ( or her ) as well.
And what ever you do, do not give up in your fight against pornography and the many nasty things that evolve from it.
Yes! My experience as well. I had a much longer time lapse before I found the church again. Then Mary and the Rosary. I too have heard those inner voices laughing at me. But I prayed the Rosary even harder. Satan was still messing with me. Instead of porn sites I started going to prostate health sites. It's good for your health! Mary then turned me on to the Brown Scapular. NOTHING! No more voices! No more porn or prostate health sites. What weapons against Satan! I highly recommended adding the Brown Scapular to arsenal.
Full of Grace,
The Lord is with thee.
Blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit
of thy womb,
Mother of God,
pray for us sinners now,
and at the hour of death.
Good For You john78