I have been reading some posts on marriages and relationships the past few days and finally felt called to ask for my own prayers. I’m very blessed to have so many holy people in my life praying already, but I’m very weak right now and know both my fiance and I could use more.
Almost two weeks ago (2 months before our wedding) My fiance freaked out and told me for a few months he’s been questioning if I’m the one and scared to get hurt and hurt me. He comes from a divorced home with many issues with infidelity, lack of openness and lack of truth and faith. Praise God, he’s going through RCIA and has been open to counseling with two priests (one from our parish, and one from the east coast who was to marry us). Last weekend he said he can’t be open, can’t let me in, and can’t give me what I need and broke it off. Well the next day, he kept his promise to pick up the priest who was marrying us, who happened to be in town, to take him to the airport. This priest is so incredibly holy, he’s young, energetic and from the moment my fiance met him I knew they “got” each other. My fiance told him on the drive all about his lack of being able to accept the unconditional love I give him, his total selfish nature, how he can’t be selfless most of the time and how he’s never really had to work for anything, its all been just given to him. He talked about how he doesn’t want to die to himself and live for Christ. Giving himself up is so scary and he’s not really sure how Christ could love him that much, let alone me. The priest then asked us if we would be able to do something really scary, but totally worth it. Father said that for the next week we would not communicate at all. The three of us would pray seperately and each speak with him privately over the phone (since he lives 3,000 miles away). He said he would take on our burden and not take this lightly