So, I need advice. I am really at a loss, and have no where to turn, so I am hoping someone here knows how to help.
I have lost my job due to the downturn of the economy, and really really poor planning of my state (I was a teacher’s aide, trying to save money to go back to school and get my certification to teach…) so money is tight. Thank God my husband is in no danger of losing his job, and with his job comes medical insurance, which covers mental health issues. The problem is, only a small handful of therapists in my area are acceptable to my healthcare.
I have been seeing one therapist for the last 3 months or so, and it’s pretty much hit the fan. Our last two sessions were arguements where she was trying to convince me that I am a judgemental person full of spite because I believe homosexuality is wrong. I won’t get into the conversations we’ve had about abortion. I am a very politically aware 23 year old, so these are issues important to me, and relate to why I feel so alone in my highly liberal state. She has determined (and I agree, based on symptoms) that I am suffering from PTSD from being physically abused, and some other horrific things that went on when I was a teen and small child. Part of this is a loss of interest in things relating to faith (especially since it was people of faith that pushed me over the edge in college, and I had a complete mental overload. I almost ended up in a hospital) and when I ask her to help me with this loss of interest in faith, her advice is to leave my church, accept a broader view of God, and seek him in nature, rather than a man-made book. Needless to say my feelings of loneliness and “unacceptability” have worsened since this assault on my most cherished beliefs has started.
Anyway, to make a long story short (ha!), how can I find a catholic therapist? CCS (Catholic Community Services) does exist in my area, but my healthcare doesn’t cover religious therapists, and I am pretty sure I won’t qualify for financial help. Which sucks because we are making enough to disqualify us from help, but not enough to afford sessions at full price with them. All the while I am stuck in a downward spiral, where I feel the only way to overcome the trauma I have faced is to leave God and morality behind, which I know it is ONLY through God I can be healed.
Does anyone know what I can do about this?