for some of you whove read my previous posts, well, things have not gotten better. married 5 months, and my husband refuses to stop looking at pornography.
i finally went to my church again to talk about an anullment, and i ended up meeting with a very old and very orthodox monsignor, who told me that my situation is not course for anullment, and that my primary duty as wife is to ensure my husband gets to heaven, no matter what.
he did say however, “i dont recall anything in the Bible about wives always having to take thier husbands on a mission with them…, do you??” he then gave me the name of an interfaith group of people traveling to africa for 24 days on a mission. so i took care of odds and ends here, and i went so that i could serve others who are in a much worse situation than me, to give my life perspective as he suggested.
i get back about 2 days ago, and while sorting through mail, i find a CITATION from the tallahassee police for “Noise Violation” and something else for about 500$. i read the complaint, and it said the police were called to my house for a noise disturbance and when they arrived, a party was going on—very loud.
so i find out my husband threw a football party for last saturdays FSU game, and invited like 35-40 people, some of which were UNMARRIED couples who he let stay over here in the same room and bed. i cant believe that he would let that kind of thing go on in my own house when he knows my views on that.
he told me that when i start paying the mortgage, then he’ll consider consulting me on who can and cant stay over while im away.
the complaint also cited that the arriving officers found two girls “making out” together while the guys there watched and cheered in front of everyone. i am completely horrified at what went on while i was gone. i am horrified that he would allow that to go on in our house, and actually enjoy watching that filth.
he just wont be reasonable. we still havent had sex in about 4 1/2 months, he wont stop watching porn, and he just does as he pleases all the time. and im supposed to try and get him to heaven? how on earth am i going to do that???