Post’s No# 53 & 54
I sincerely apologize for feeling downcast. Like a dark shadow has come over me.
(“Satan Be Gone In The Name Of Jesus Christ”)
August my Gang Rape at Gunpoint Anniversary Month
The Trauma Of Shell Shock reverberates inside my shattered soul.
Asking God to erase such horrid memories would be like me kicking the goad through the narrow gate so few enter. How many can say that they have gone through. Or are going through such a similar story as spoken in the biblical story of Job ?
I have fought 30 years of Hell on earth eating away at my soul through this temporal Dark Night of the Soul. You would think that God would grant me humble wisdom such a rare gift in this lonely suffering life. But Who Am I to voice concerns and complaints.
My life in this world is fading away with many illnesses, and some terminal.
And what could I add to my disgusting embraced pain that has not already bee spoken of down through the centuries. What more does God want from me ?
All be leaving Catholic Answers and friends for a while to do some deep soul searching.
Please Pray For Me.
Yours In The Peace and Love
of Christ Jesus