I feel like screaming, I feel like crying.
I am seeing too many mistakes, where the treatment of my mother is concerned.
She is 74 and 46kgs with daily diarrhea, nausea and vomiting. She has been to the ER many times admitted some of the time and then sent home with no real diagnosis and continuance of illness. Her own GP says he can do nothing any more for her.
We again went to the ER and I got a downdressing from the consultant and I felt very itimidated. I think they are embarrassed that my mother has had diarrhea, vomiting for 3 years. At the end of that day, they said we had an urgent appt. with a gastro specialist and now they have no record of it, so no appt and my mother continues to lose strength and weight.
I think there is a black cloud over my mother, and I think and I dont usually blame God, but I feel He has put it there.
She has cursed Him a million times and she has not been the best mother.
She mocked him with prayerful hands and then hurled f word expletives at God when she'd finished a round of vomiting.
I've only been made aware recently that God can punish our sin in our lives and not just after we die.
She is abusive emotionally and loves with condition.
It all is getting too much to bare. Imagine how she feels. I feel like giving up.