I hope you can see the outpouring of love from your brothers & sisters. Please know that is only a fraction of the love that God the Father has for you, and He loves you, because He made you and bought you at the price of His only begotten Son. Because you are precious to God and bought at a price, and because you are part of the Body of Christ, anything that concerns you concerns Him and affects us, and nothing is
trivial. so, Please don’t think of your concerns as trivial.
I think I’m in the same boat, more or less, as Nana is (although Nana can’t be in as much trouble as I am). I’m what they call “morbidly obese”. Although I’ve lost 30 lbs., I need to lose another 80 in order to become a good surgical risk for Lumbar Spinal Fusion (+ another 20 beyond that to be at my ideal weight). Because of my lower spine, I also can’t do most of the exercises I did even 10 years ago. so, I have to lose weight by dieting - reducing my caloric intake. As Nana might say, it’s not easy, and it’s really slow.
If you can keep Jesus at the center of your life, and try to help others when the opportunities arise, I can just about promise you that you’ll find it not as hard to obsess about your weight or to keep from getting angry with yourself or to envy others.
Try to be a little more gentle and patient with yourself. One of the Desert Fathers said, “The beginning of wisdom is the fear of the Lord and humility with patience.”
I hope this helps.
Your Brother in Christ, Michael