Sometimes it takes me days, weeks, months or even years to look back and truly feel remorseful for something I may have done or said. Does Jesus care how much time you have to sincerely repent? Forgiveness is very difficult for me. I do not fully understand what it means. I used to be like a child, I think I can forgive, forget and reconcile. It is hard to forgive when people deliberately hurt you. I used to make excuses for other people’s behavior. Some things people do change your perspective of them and you can never trust them again. Is forgiveness an overnight process, or is how long should it take?
You can tell me how God forgives me even though I sin. That just does not change the way I feel. It annoys me how some Christians forget they are dealing with an actual human and just quote scripture.
Life is filled with big and little disappointments. It is easy to state “forgive our sins as we forgive those who trespass against us.”
God may forgive us immediately once we ask. Or I think? I guess it some memories are hard to shake off as easily.
As an adult, people seriously hurtful. I remember when as a child I could forgive easily for people not wanting to play with, steal my toy. Forgiveness was easier. It is not so easy, with things like lies, infidelity, gossip, revealing personal secrets, sabotaging your relationship. People are cruel.