First off, I would like to let everyone know that I am discerning a vocation and I’m also a college student. It’s my last year of school earning my BS, I’m thinking about entering a religious community after college. While I am aiming for a religious vocation, I’m still open to marriage and whatever God throws at me. So I’m “staying at the present moment” if you will.
I am basically posting this topic as a two-fold question of:
- How much prayer are we called to be in?
- What prayers are the highest priority?
I know we are suppose to love God with all our heart. Believe me, if it were up to me I would pray the whole 16 hours of the day. The only downside at this moment is that I am a college student. I work part time and am involved in several extra-curricular activities. God is supplementing me with his grace to continue praying, studying and doing these extra-curricular activities. I thank Him for that grace.
On the flip-side, the enemy is also taking advantage of this. My guilt, innocence and impulsive behaviors that causes me to do things such as praying instead of studying for a test is putting me behind school. Most of it is through my lack of prudence and human vulnerability to temptations.
To go over question #1, how much prayer are we called to be in?
My schedule for the day is started with a 6:00am rise, 6:30am-7:30am Eucharistic adoration, lauds - morning prayers (with a religious community) and quick break by eating breakfast then I proceed to pray the rosary. After rosary, I either have work or classes and then later in the afternoon I attend daily mass and vespers - evening prayers with the religious community.
Easily at any day I do a minimum of at least 3 hours of prayer. This is what fuels my energy, my love, my grace, my studies and everything else.
I noticed that if I reduce in prayer, I get reduced in grace and I feel more irritable and more prone to sin.
There are also times that as a college student I get tempted to stay up pretty late and attend social events. This results in a time where I need to stop prayer and continue studying. The question is how and when?
To go over question #2,
What in which order of importance are the following prayers? Am I correct in the order below?
- daily mass +45 min
- rosary +30 min
- holy hour +60 min
- morning prayers +30 min
- evening prayers +30 min
If I don’t say most or all these prayers I don’t feel at peace with myself. I feel like I’m almost betraying God. Many times I have fallen to the trap of listening to the enemy’s suggestions. For example, I just recently learned of “demonic oppressions” in which the enemy could plant evil thoughts. I thought before that these were my thoughts and I was evil and kept confessing it claiming it as my thoughts but I realized that it’s a thought that doesn’t have to define myself.
I have to be prudent. I know that in the long run, doing bad in school will cause me to have a lack of prayer later on because I will have to be “catching up” in school which is less work. I need to find the perfect balance.
If I completely stop prayer, I will not be at peace. In the end, if I don’t pray and have peace I won’t be able to concentrate in my studies.