Don't listen to the people here at CAF when it comes to relationship advice.
They can't help you. They can't even really sympathize. Why? Because they don't know you. Your situation is complex, much more complex than you or they can understand, and you just communicate in a post all the dynamics which go into WHY you're single. How can you sympathize with someone you know nothing about? And so, they're left with nothing but cute maxims and recycled proverbs. Not only that, but once everyone jumps on the opinion boat, you'll likely feel ten times worse about yourself than you did before you posted your original problem. You'd be better talking to the next stranger who you pass by on the street because at least he/she can look you in the eye rather than hypothesizing from 500 miles away.
I didn't listen to a single damn thing anybody here had to say and am still in a happy, successful relationship.
Just my :twocents:.