I come to you all once again because the Lord and Holy Spirit truly guide plenty of you with helping those of us who need it most.
I’m a little troubled today because at confession, I gave my list of sins to the pastor, and concluded that i was sorry for “Receiving the Holy Eucharist in a state of mortal sin”. His face actually seemed a little perturbed when I made that statement, because he said that none of my sins were considered “mortal”. He classified it as this: a sin is usually grave matter under “the Big Three” which are 1) murder, 2) apostasy and 3) adultery.
Now, I’m troubled by what he told me because one of my sins was that of lust, particularly self inflicted acts of impurity. I have brought that sin to confession many times as well as having received the Eucharist without asking penance for that sin. So, I’m actually a tad confused. It may have been that I said that the sin is a “small struggle with acts of impurity” (since it happens at a frequency of about once a month). Maybe that triggered him to find it as too much of a habit to consider it a grave matter.
That also made me a little nervous, because then I was thinking that I may be scrupulous for confessing that sin and the other sins I had told him about! Unfortunately, this confession gave me a lot more confusion and disturbance than it did peace.
Any help you can all give me is much appreciated!