Here’s the thing. I’ve always felt for a long time now that my mind isn’t as whole or united as many people outside of it perceive. I don’t think I have a real multiple personality disorder but there are times when I feel like I constantly change between various ‘modes’. Kinda like the guy from He-Man, Man-E-Faces or Blitzwing from that new Transformers: Animated.
At first it really caused me a lot of trouble. There were times when I did something in a certain ‘mode’ only to hate myself for it upon seeing it from the perspective another ‘mode’. Each of these different ‘modes’ have rather troublesome aspects.
The problem is, it’s these same aspects that also become useful traits in certain situations.
For example, when I’m dealing with liberals I tend to portray a cold, religious, cynical way of thinking so that I won’t be swayed by their excessive appeals to emotion (something I find them to have a strange habit of doing).
On the other hand, when I’m dealing with hillbilly evangelical fundamentalists I give the impression of a rebellious youth who uses borderline atheistic reasoning so as to convince them on how irrational their beliefs are.
Tell me, is it wrong for me to be like this? It’s just that it’s always been my nature to split my mind so I can have the different pieces seeing from different perspectives.