When we say that the Father begat the Son, does this then mean that the Father created the Son? If this is the case and we regard the Triune God to have existed infinitely, I am finding these incompatible.
First Amelia, you should really read your Cathchism, it contains what you must believe as a Catholic. ( Link at the bottom of this page ). Yes, I know it is boring, even the Bible is boring at times, especially after a lifetime of reading it. The Trinity is discussed in Part 1, section II, paragraph 238-260.
Next, the Father eternally begets the Son and the Holy Spirit eternally " flows " from them both. This can only be know by faith in Divine Revelation. Jesus revealed this mystery to us. One cannot reach this truth by reason or science. It is something we believe as opposed " proving " or demonstrating.
Further confusion happens for me when I see that Jesus asks for the Father to take this cup from Him essentially asking not to be crucified, then says Your will be done like we lowly sinners have been told to say, and later says why have You forsaken Me. It seems like He is not speaking with His equal/partial-self in these statements. I know I must be misinterpreting them, so I ask for perhaps an explanation from you. All parts of the Trinity being equal, why would Jesus say and do these things to His equal?
Remember Jesus had a human intellect and will besides his Divine intellect and will. When he speakes as he did above, he is speaking through his human nature. He wants us to know that his human nature is really stressed and suffering, just like we would. And it is also possible that at times his Divine Nature keeps silent at times so that the suffering will be even more harsh. But remember, no matter the case, Jesus’ intellect and will were totally devoted and trusting in his Father and completely committed to the Father’s will.
(I said the Athanasian Creed, and I think it was not a good idea; it generated so many questions for me. My thoughts are Arian in nature, so perhaps a refutation of Arianism or a punch in the face from St Nicholas is in order for me?)
When you have doubts, just dismiss them like any temptation, which is just what has been happening to you. And pray for the gift of faith.
The last question I have is what does Jesus mean when He says ‘The Kingdom of God?’ Is he the the KoG or is it inside us, or is it some place outside of space and time? Expand on what you know of the Kingdom of God. Thank you. Bless you if you even have a partial answer!
There are many ways we can truthfully speak of the Kingdom of God. Since Christ was the Second Person of the Trinity, he could truthfully tell the Jews that the K.O.G. was truly among them, since God’s Kingdom exists wherever God is and wherever he works. So yes, the K.O.G. is all around us and in us because God is all around us and works in us. But the K.O.G. is in us in a special way when we are in the state of grace and when we receive the sacraments.
Finally, just remember that the K.O.G. is wherever God is. It is just that it is veiled from us. It will be unveiled and made plain to us at the final judgment, when we will ( hopefully ) become a part of it or, perhaps we should say, when it becomes a permanent and psychologically experienced part of us.
Yes, it is very deep. Some of the last paragraph are my own thoughts but I think they reflect the reality as near as we can espress it in this life.
I’m very much struggling, so please do the charitable thing if you have some or all of the answers and help a sister in Christ
Deep theology, yeesh!