Does anyone know of any Catholic communities that you’d reccomend? I’m surprised there aren’t more resources on this, I’ve been googling about it a lot. I would like to live in a Catholic community, for the good of my own soul.
I’ve been coming back to the Church. I say it that way, because I decided to come back to the Church in about May of this year. I was going to Mass faithfully and was planning on going to a Catholic college (which will remain nameless here). Anyways, other than Mass, I met 0 Catholics, I talked to one priest 2 times. And I stopped going to Church for the last few months. The last Mass I went to was at the end of September.
So, I want to go to a community where I can go back to the Church. I don’t want to join like a missionary activity thing (I’m not in a place to be doing that). I have a lot of personal demons that I’d like to combat. Like St. Benedict spent 3 years in a cave. I want to go somewhere where I can become Holy. I NEED to, actually.
A few days ago I was very depressed. I’m not sleeping right, I have very few people in my life. And I have very few people to talk to about my decisions. Like, at the moment, 2 friends. My parents are out of my life and so is my brother. None of them are particularly religious anyways.
Lets see, I’m gay, I have depression. I have a 14 year+ pornography addiction. And it made me leave the Church to seek out a gay lifestyle, which I did for less than 2 years (2016-2018) before deciding to come back to the Church 6 months ago. So, wherever I go, I need to find people who can help me with these issues. Many Catholics aren’t comfortable talking about them [I once lived with a Catholic Deacon, but my priest told me NOT to tell him I had same sex attraction, even though I later saw a Courage DVD at his house. Clearly he would’ve been qualified to talk to me and help me on it, but my priest advised against it, so I never did]. Anyways, point being, my sexuality and porn addiction and the mental issues that stem from that are just problems like any other, and I need to find people who will help me tackle them. Rather than me being quiet about it and keeping it to myself. They need to be addressed.
I could go on lol. But I’ll try to end it here. I was just giving some background on me that is pretty relevant. Ideally, I just want to find somewhere where I can still be working and making money (bc I definitely need to be doing that right now), but where I’m also living in Catholic community. Finding my place in the world, becoming Holy. I wasn’t ready to go to college by myself. I have plenty of gifts and talents, but when left to my own devices things get bad. I’m just perhaps not cut out to go it alone, I mean, most ppl probably aren’t.
I look forward to the responses. I may be going to a Benedictine Abbey near me to ask them if they have any ideas on this…