As I attend Church each Sunday with my family everything seems familiar, but somehow I don’t seem to fit anymore. There is comfort in the songs we sing and partaking of the Sacrament. It feels good and right to be with my family, yet my questions and disbelief grow.
There is no great sin in my life. I do not read anti-Mormon literature and find it offensive. I have been depressed for some time and there is an emptiness that I have not been able to fill.
Why is the Lord doing this to me? Why can’t I find the anwers I’m looking for in my own faith which is so dear to me?
I have been going to the local Catholic Church about once a week catching the end of a mass or just walking around the grounds or sitting quietly and praying in the sanctuary. It is unfamiliar, yet peaceful,and stirs a longing within me.
I feel like I have two souls in me. Sometimes they coexist peacefully and at other times they do not. I am afraid that one day they will tear me apart and there will be nothing left of me.