I’m a recent convert, but during much of Lent I’ve been what we called a “backslider” when I was a Protestant, missing Mass, neglecting devotions and some Lenten vows, and other religious obligations, etc., due chiefly to manic-depression, stress, and anxiety. Much of the time when I’m not at my hated job I just go home and sleep because I just don’t want to go anywhere or be around people.
Anyway, I have to work Saturdays and most churches in my city schedule their Confession sessions for then, generally during the actual time I have to be at work. So basically if I don’t confess in the half-hour before I’m due at work, at the church several blocks from my job, I don’t get to confess. (I’ve been scared to privately schedule a session.)
I got to that church just in time today, only to learn they weren’t doing Confession today. This is the latest Catholic newbie faux pas of a long line. My understanding is that not taking Eucharist at Easter is a major no-no, though not as much, say, as taking Eucharist with unconfessed mortal sin on your record.
I just feel like a bull in a china shop, breaking things every time I turn around. And as you can gather I’m in a major period of spiritual dryness, which frustrates me all the more because it’s come on so soon after my Confirmation.