I’m sorry my first few posts would be about me…but Ive come here hoping someone might be going through my situation, or has…and can offer advice. I’m 24 yrs old and my name is Starla.
Briefly my story:I was adopted by a single mother whom often joked about God or people who believed in Him…even though my mom has a good heart, you can imagine I didnt find religion an easy topic…I began to study and practice a pagan religion, which I was very happy with for 10 yrs, my mom didn’t care since it wasnt christian…but I found myself collecting little books about Jesus, or catholic prayer books and hiding them…Id say the rosary before bed, ma didnt know.
nce I moved out things became complicated, I moved across country with a boyfriend whom left me shortly after arriving in NY. I prayed and prayed to my Gods, but the pain remained, and I felt like nothing was being done to help my situation the only comfort I had was reading the Psalms… and that memory stayed with me.
Fast forward a few yrs… Im doing much better, I enrolled into RCIA but still have a problem: I keep returning to my pagan faith, and then back to catholicism…back and forth. I even have skipped a couple of the meetings because I am so confused…I cant keep returning to Jesus and repenting but do the samething…or go back to my pagan faith… I feel like I’m going crazy and don’t know what to do…Please, can someone offer advice?
p.s. sorry this is such a long post.