[quote=snowman10]I wish I could explain it better than it isn’t her to pray with others or whatnot. I am hoping that as I make my way through RCIA she will see what brings somebody from the outside the Church in. I plan on regular confession and other things. But I have had the idea to break up but I love her very much. Yet at the same time, I sometimes wonder if I am with her because I know there is a sense of security. I could never imagine her with someone else. I would like to make a family with her. Now I am just frustrated.
I wish you could explain it better too. I get that she’s not accustomed to praying with others, but has she been to a Catholic retreat in her life? Would she go to one with you if you asked her to? If she’s not open to that, then yeah, I’d say she isn’t willing to expand her faith practices at the moment, but if she says yes she may come to appreciate prayer with others.
You have the idea to break up. What would be your reasons for this? Has she done something to offend you? As you’ve gotten to know her has she turned out to not be a potential mate? Is it because you feel you are called to Christ and no other woman? If it’s the last, then you shouldn’t break up until you’ve worked with a spiritual advisor to discern that.
You can’t imagine her with anyone else? Why not? Don’t you want her to be happy? If you want to break up because she’s not meant for you, then that means she’s meant for someone else and the more time she spends with you is time away from that other person. I would think you’d want to set her free to find her real mate if you know it isn’t you.
As for wanting to make a family with her. Boy, you’re way ahead of the game here. You’re still in school, do not have a financial future laid out for you and a wife yet, you are trying to discern whether you’re called vocation will be priesthood or marriage, and you’re just now in your RCIA program. Slow down. Patience is a virtue. You can’t rush God’s plan for you, you just have to follow His lead at His pace.
Focus on your coursework, RCIA, working with a spiritual advisor, and enjoying the companionship of this wonderful woman. You can maintain the relationship on a constant level for quite some time if need be without taking it to that next step.