I have started reading Scripture every night before I sleep. When I am ready to sleep, I have a series of things I do to bring myself down into a true meditative state where I am totally aware and able to concentrate without any outside intrusions. Thanks to my wife, I have these wonderful little earpieces that exclude outside sound. I just put them into my ears and begin the process. All of this is with very controlled breathing. I pray The Lord’s Prayer which has a beautiful rhythm to it that has a remarkable effect almost immediately. Then I pray to Christ Jesus and since I am not a member of the Church yet (on the RCIA path but just the first step) I ask Christ Jesus to hear my confession of my life’s sins, Repent and then ask for Forgiveness though I am not worthy to even be in His presence or to touch the hem of his garment. I finish with Psalm 23 which also has a beautiful rhythm and always takes me to the level where I can truly meditate.
I apologize for the long beginning and it is not to elevate myself in any way but to simply, hopefully show how I truly love Prayer and know the Power of Prayer because I have felt it in my life. I hope that does not sound arrogant and I know I am apologizing too much but this is my first post here, I do not know anyone and though I read the rules, I have memory issues and constantly worry about offence.
I had been reading Luke 19 and was meditating on the parable that Jesus related. Two things came to me like light shining into my mind.
The first is that we seemingly hear everywhere that religion and quite often the Church is a relic and a means to trap people in the past. Nothing could be further from the truth. I believe that the Commandments, the Holy Words of Almighty God and the Holy Words of Christ Jesus are the most liberating forces that one could ever hope to receive. Why? If you simply follow the Commandments and stay with the Holy Word you live a life of peace and harmony with the world and everyone around you and that is true freedom. It liberates your mind to go down paths that do nothing but make you stronger in your mind, body and soul. People have taken as truth that possessions are what matters in this world which is the greatest of lies. The poorest man or woman that has shelter and food and lives a life on the Path of Righteousness is rich in the ways that matter for the soul grows as your life aligns properly with the ways that Almighty God and Christ Jesus meant for us to live. I know this has been discussed elsewhere but when the knowledge that what I was truly receiving was perfect freedom, all of my pain and all of my worries simply faded away and I drifted down a little deeper.
This was when I started going through the parable in Luke 19. I had never understood the parable before though I believe I might have come close at one time but could not fully grasp the true depth. Here is what came to me. Jesus was saying that if you know The Way, The Truth and The Life and you do something with it as the servants made their single pound each into more, they you are doing the true work of Almighty God and Christ Jesus, spreading the Gospel and making more from what you have. The servant who simply held onto the pound and did nothing with it lost even that pound for what good is Faith if you keep it to yourself and don’t at least attempt to share it with others? If I understand it correctly, simply going through the motions is not walking the Path of Righteousness, in a way it is a repudiation of Faith as why would you not want to share and increase something so wonderful? I am still working through the Scripture where Jesus talks about at least putting it into a bank so that interest would accrue and would appreciate any insight into that part of the parable.
Tonight I plan to consider the rest of Luke 19 because it is kind of “calling” to me to go over it in my mind some more.
If I have done anything wrong in this post, believe me, such was not my intention. In no way, shape or form am I trying to elevate myself because I know what I am, an old sinner with many confessions, repentance and begging Christ Jesus for forgiveness ahead of me before my soul can begin to become clean. I know Christ Jesus could Forgive my sins and cleanse my soul but in my heart and my soul I know I am simply not worthy. I have blood on my hands that refuses to leave me in peace but praying, meditation on Scripture and the only form of Confession I can do right now is helping me as I have finally begun to be able to sleep again. Prayer can do wonders in our lives and all we have to do is open our hearts, minds and souls to receive it.
If I sound pretentious, please forgive me.
If I mangled the real meaning of Scripture, please forgive me and may God Almighty and Christ Jesus forgive me for such a sin.
If I offended anyone, please forgive me.
Warmest regards and may Almighty God and Christ Jesus Bless you and Keep you and yours Always,